Yesterday was 12-21-2012, and believe it or not I hardly
noticed it. I have mixed emotions about that. Part of me feels like I should
have dedicated my whole day to praying and sitting in silence. But the other
part of me feels like I have done that over the past few years, working to get
me to this place. I have so much peace in my life right now. This is what I
have been waiting for my whole life. Growing up I was so uncomfortable with
everything; I kept searching for the meaning of life, for the others who were
like me, for the reason I never satisfied, basically I spent my whole life
searching for me. Yesterday slipped by
me because I was having so much fun. Is it possible to get to a point in your
life where you have just arrived and there is no more to ask for, only to give
thanks for all you have been given…… That’s how I feel right now; I feel like
I’ve been waiting 100 life times to get to this point right here, what more is
there to ask for??? Some would say “you can always have more” but isn’t that
the meaning of gluttony? I feel like if I
take this time to be completely present in what the universe and I have created
then as I need things they will come to me before I even knew I needed them.
Now that is good living!!!!
My mom is always sending me these recordings about deeper
clarity, abundance, and prosperity. So I was listening to one yesterday evening
while I was getting ready to out to yet another fabulous Moroccan party. Most
of the time people talk about abundance it the form of things, how to clear
your energy field so you can win the lottery, how to meditate to get a new job,
visualize a never ending stream of money, practice this and you will have a new
car in 30days or less,..lol.. The list goes on and on. But yesterday this
gentleman had a different theory that I really connected with. He said that you
can only really have true abundance if you are not connected to it……Then he
went on to explain. The person doing the interview later asked him “well why do
some people have so much and others have so little” his response was something
like “ who is judging the amount of what something is worth???” A few post ago
I wrote “just cause you got it all, do mean you got it all!!! And that’s
REAL!!!!. The other day I was walking down the street and I saw a homeless man
sitting on his little mat reading the Quran with so much conviction and
passion. I was looking for something in my pockets when I walked pass him, during
my search 20DH fell out on to the ground in front of him. I did not notice, but
he chased me down to give it back to me. I was so completely touch by his
honesty ( here we have a man that may or may not have had any food that day,
clothes tatted, dirty, and turn, very few teeth in his mouth, spends his nights
laying on the hard cold ground with a stone for a pillow, no shoes on his feet, and yet has a heart that
is so connected to universal law) I wanted to cry I was so touched. I know
people who are dipping with material things and not a fraction of that mans
honesty. So I 100% agree with the speaker last night, who is to judge worth and
value of abundance, the man with everything and still that is not enough, or
the man who seems to have nothing, but in truth has it all……. I thanked him for
returning the money to me, then told him I’d like for him to keep, but he kept
trying to explain that I dropped it, he found it and since it was mine I should
take it back. Trying to hold back the
tears, I held his hand with the money in it, looked him in his eyes and
insisted that he keep it. After about fifty “shukran’s” (thank you) he finally
walked away. And just like that two blessings were exchanged; for him a week
worth of meals and for me the honor of being in the presence of a true light
being. So I say the day after 12-21-2012 that I have waited a hundred lifetimes
to be rich and full of everything that really matters, my cup runneth over!!!!
And for that I am eternally grateful!!!
