You know that saying if it’s worth having then it’s worth
fighting for….. Well I am in that type of situation, not with a person as most
would think when using that phrase, but more with myself. Those of you who know
me and have followed my life know the type of person I am. “Wow that Mahatara
sure can take a licking and keep on ticking…… But I often asked myself ‘why did
I choose to keep on ticking’ when so many choose to give up. My children are a
good part of that answer, but the real answer is, I kept ticking because I knew
deep down inside that there was a reality that I owed to myself to live. There
are very few successes in life without failure, and all of my “oh No’s, not
again” led me to this point. I always try to follow the path of least
resistance, but now I wonder what is on the other side of resistance?? Here in
Morocco I have seen myself in a way I’ve
never seen me before, my heart has a joy in it that I have never known before,
and for the first time in my life I finally feel at home….. My tourist visa is
up and now I am faced with either leaving Morocco or renewing my visa. Some people may wonder how can a person who comes
from “the greatest country in the world”…lol… and find salvation in a 3rd
world country…. Life is funny that way, just because you got it all; don’t mean
you got it all…. One man’s trash is another man’s treasure….
So during this
process to renew my visa I have to prove that I pay rent, which I have done for
the past two months, but it has to be proved… So interestingly enough the
person that has to provide this information to the immigration office for me, has
decided at the last minute that I need to pay them $9000DH or they cannot
provide this information….Meanwhile knowing that my visa will expire in 5days;
talk about being caught in between a rock and a hard place. When I tried to
reason with them they kept insisting that this is how things are done. I asked those
people weeks ago for this document, and they said it was lost… REALLY!.. HOW
CONVENIENT!!…Then they tried to hit me with the one two wammy, like you are American
surly you can come up with this amount. So I’m thinking “its not a matter of
rather I can come up with it or not, you are straight trying to hussel me.”( I
don’t think these people have had much contact with BL Americans, they don’t
know I’m from the Projects , I will get Projectish and I would have that whole
office up in smoke…lol… They are lucky I know Jesus, and it’s almost
12-21-2012..lol…) No, but on the real, I
was real upset and starting crying, so I went to the ocean. While I was there
watching the girls playing so freely and absorbing the beauty of our mother crashing up
against the rocks along the coast line, I starting thinking about the life I had
built here, the friends I had made, and the peace that I have on a regular basses,
and how I am not ready to give all that up, not without a fight. So here comes
another intense part of my journey. You know what grandma use to say “if you
want something done right, do it yourself” so I am going to cut out the middle
man and just leave the country, this way I can stay another 3 months without
any problems and when I get back I’m looking for another place to live. So I will have to pack up our house and leave
it with a friend. Then take the bus 3 hours to Marrakech, from there take the
train 8 hour to Tangier, then take something ( I don’t know what yet) to the
borders of Ceuta Spain, and then walk across the borders. So if you had the thought to donate anything
to the Urban Mystic Gypsy Fund at the top of the page, Now would be a really
good time….
Before I go on, let me stop and say my heart goes out to all
the families who are trying to migrate to a different county to have another
life, for whatever reason. It is not easy and I can see how some people will
try to use manipulating tactics because they feel you are desperate. I often hear
people talk bad about immigrants, like “why don’t they just stay in their own
country?” and I think “Do you really wanna go there.” It is easy to judge
someone’s situation when you have not taken time to walk in their shoes. So to
all the families traveling around the world trying to give their children a
different life, please hear me when I say ‘ Keep praying, keep trusting, and
know that the Creator has Angels all around to help us stand tall when we feel
like falling. And even though things may seem tough now, know that there is
always a rainbow after the storm. Many
Blessing to all the readers……I’m going to pack L